This is the first chapter of the "Discus Declarations". A few notes on the reading experience.
1. Please note that both the author and the commentator insert footnotes, which are marked in the text by Arabic and Roman numerals respectively, and are found at the bottom of the post.
2. The indecipherable text in the epigram of chapter one is due to some uncertainty on my part as to whether I have legal permission to turn the Coptic font I use into a webfont. If you wish to see how it looks, you may copy it into a Word document and download the font found here. I do apologize.
Let me know by email or in the comments if you are enjoying this serial. Next week however, I will be returning to non-fiction with the first in a series of historical essays on the "Argument from Victory", and from here on out I plan to alternate weekly between fictional serials and nonfictional essays.
Book One[i]
Is This What You
Want, Dear Reader?
Published upon
the Feast of the Dormition of the Theotokos
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o asouwx xN teeiMNTxhke[ii]
I am revealed as something disgusting: a brooding,
dirty old hen hovering over the face of his cracked Fabergé. The egg is broken: the girl is flown. And so,
having arrived at the moment of age when one requires a holiday from the
finality of certain crucial decisions (a holiday that must nevertheless confirm these decisions in the shackles of an emancipating necessity) a man comes to
write his memoirs. If redemption is impossible, dear reader, you will at least
give me the gift of mercy, or failing that, even the widow’s mite of pity. The
smallest votive will not be turned away.
I begin one year ago exactly. August was holding
court from the hot, sagging womb of his asphalt throne, and every piece of
glass, metal, and tarmac in Los Angeles was shining, searing or steaming in
obedience. At 2:30 PM on a Monday, after a frightening weekend in which an F5
tornado had obliterated the gated community of Rolling Hills and hurled a solar
panel the size of a baseball diamond so high and far that it eventually came
down in the middle of Central Avenue—where it decapitated a hot-dog vending
shabti and nearly overturned a streetcar full of tourists—I was reclining in a
birch paneled office that reeked of a chemically castrated spring breeze,
watching a Miss America hologram with the rough dimensions of the Chrysler
Building as she paused on her way down the boulevard to apply some Oxy-Bond®
lipstick[iii].
Catching my gaze out of the corner of her eye, Miss
America turned, smiled, winked, and blew me The Kiss That Would Save My
Marriage. We had repeated this little ritual of ours every day for the past two
weeks. (This little ritual of ours was of course being repeated with every
streaming resident of Los Angeles who fell within a sightline and the specified
demographic or preferential parameters, but I was not so proud as to deny
myself a mild tincture of mid-morning delusion: gentle female duplicity has
ever been the food of aging and embittered male vanity, and this is surely the
least harmful format for the the thing so far). But this morning in particular,
for reasons we will never know, the blown kiss contained a certain sudden something.
I felt the impact on my ribs, and when
I looked down, I discovered a dent of unpleasant realization:
I was given to reflect on the fact that I had
occupied the last hour and a half with the internal contest between a 21:30
nightcap followed by a 22:00 bedtime or a 22:00 nightcap followed by a 22:30
bedtime. I was then given to reflect on the fact that this decision had me in
the grip of a legitimate anxiety. I was then given to reflect on the fact that
this decision had gripped me with legitimate anxiety on every Monday morning for the past six months. I was then given to
reflect on the fact that a half hour interval between scheduled bedtimes had
thus become the only source of genuine uncertainty in my every Monday morning.
Suddenly resolved in favor of a total change of
scenery and the suspension or destruction of all my existing relationships, I
decided that I would accept a ludicrous offer I had recently received for
alternative academic employment: an associate professorship at Isaiah’s Bow
University, a humble backwoods distillery of bible-friendly, socio-prophetic,
eco-crusading academic moonshine in the wilds of north central Kentucky. As it
turned out, the institution was—miraculously—already affiliated under my
existing corporate prosopon: Ganymede Industries®. I contacted my client
coordinator, one Guan Yin, and confirmed that my transfer would be approved by
Ganymede. (Apparently Isaiah’s Bow had been only recently acquired—at bargain basement
prices—and Ganymede was happy to bring in a shiny name to try and increase
blood flow in a declining body). Pleasantly surprised, I arranged to have my
financial and medical portfolios transferred to the client coordinator for
Spencer County.
Guan-Yin was, as ever, pleasantly sunny and polite.
It was especially gratifying that she refrained from any theatrical perplexity
at my obviously absurd decision. The same could not be said for my department
head at UCLA. Still, he was perceptive enough to see that the fire had gone out
of my belly some time ago, and I suspect he was happy for the opportunity to
exchange my tarnished name-brand appeal for the bright hunger of a clawing
young nobody[1].
Perhaps things have a different texture for people
who chose to have children, but at least in my own experience of dotage, a
cavalier set of sentiments pranced in upon the heavy hoof-prints of my middle
age, an attitude distinct from, yet closely related to, the exuberant stupidity
of my youth. Although, (unlike my younger self), I am fully aware of the
potential consequences of my decisions, I am also (unlike my middle aged self),
fully aware that however disastrous these consequences might be, my world will
by no means end, (absenting of course
the spectre of my mortality, something to which I have always been curiously
indifferent). I will effect no grand subtraction in the measure of my
happiness; excluding the temporary impact of transitional speed-bumps, I will
probably go on feeling much the same as I have always felt about more or less
everything. The great realization of life on the hill’s far side has been for
me this: a thing that happens to you is just that and only that. And that is
not so very much. The boldness of decrepitude is the knowledge that the stakes
are, in fact and almost invariably, incredibly
small.
By the afternoon of the following day, I was ready
to leave. There is never much to pack. I left Pio Nono, my contemplative
creamsicle shorthair, to the neighbors’ little boy Giuseppe, who loves him in
that hair-raising way that children and misanthropes can love animals.
Giuseppe’s parents were not home, for which I was grateful; I warned him to
take Pio’s ex cathedra meows with a
grain of salt—“too much wet food will only upset his digestion”—and left
Giuseppe to prepare for the war of independence with his father Victor, who
looks at cats as if they constitute a potential fifth column in the household.
The drive to the airport was unpleasant. The taxi
was an aging model with an irritating faux-Chicana chirp, and the roadways were
heavily snarled. Apparently, Hurricane Eliot had slammed an ancient white pine
through a Pangaea® data-dome in Brooklyn, forcing Lisa, the LA traffic
supervisor, to jocky with BART[iv]
for server space in a rinky-dink backup data-dome somewhere southeast of Reno.
The kinks had clearly not been ironed out: my PERD[v]
helpfully informed me that the trip to LAX[vi]
was 3.67x what it had been the last time I flew on a Tuesday afternoon, and that
had been the week before Thanksgiving.
My autonomic response was to open an interface on
the windshield and start re-shuffling a set of concepts I hoped to spin into a
paper for the IAAI[vii]
meeting next July, but for the sixth or seventh time I was forced to conclude
that I was getting nowhere in the absence of more data. I spent a few minutes
fine tuning a truffler I had begun composing in July—intended to identify any
studies that could plug the gaps in my dataset—and instructed Hilarius to set
it loose in the Labor Day A&I[viii]
conference at CUNY[ix].
Then I lit a joint, opened a bottle of cognac, cracked the window, rolled down
my ad-blockers, and took the cultural pulse.
Most of the holo-pitches bobbing, bouncing,
burbling, and burlesquing their way through the traffic jam were Sirius themed:
no matter the product, it was all lemonade and long siestas, browned arms and
bikini tops. I paid five bucks for a P-W[x]
that put a yellow-white bull’s eye on every surface that was hot enough to fry
an egg. Pangaea® was still flaunting Kamaka’s[xi]
sex appeal; she came jogging through the traffic jam in tiny teal shorts and a
Hello-Kitty tank-top, pushing some new piece of scheduling software that
integrated temperature forecasts into its automated trip booking. As usually
happens for me, I felt over-stimulated within about ten minutes, and put the
ad-blockers back up.
I opted instead to load a pirated P-W which
compensates for tinting and opacity in automotive window glass, and used my
zoom to do some people watching. An inveterate and incorrigible noser, I have
always been grateful for the automobile: it is the most intimate interior space
that is readily available for public viewing. People are curiously oblivious to
the possibility that someone might be watching. The federal mandate on
vehicular automation may have taken our hands off the wheel and our eyes off
the road, but Americans continue to assume that every motorcar is a monad: a
climate controlled personal cosmos, windowless, unscrutinized, sealed in the
imperial grandeur of a splendid isolation.
To begin with, I focused on the brisk black shoals
of private petro-cars pollocking the candy apple sea of electric city taxis.
Beautiful in their sureness of purpose and hideous in their sense of
entitlement, they zipped brusquely past my aging red hat lady, as they roared
down the channels Lisa parted for their expedition payments like waters before
the staff of Moses. The zoom revealed corporate conquistadores in kaleidoscopic
suits (what is that fashion which has burst over Sao Paulo runways like a
parakeet firework? West African Couture?) batting at their windshield
interfaces like overlarge cats and shouting at inefficiencies unseen.
One red haired woman, sporting a purple stovepipe
surmounting pink pince-nez and an emerald suit with buttercream piping,
appeared to be meditating; her legs were crossed and her chest moved in gentle
swells; yet her eyes were open and obviously streaming. Perhaps a new form of
Vipassana was trending, relying on sensory saturation for insight rather than
sensory withdrawal. It would be easy to market: you could back it up with
neuroimaging demonstrating a positive impact on cognitive tasks involving the
bifurcation of relevant and irrelevant stimuli, then roll out some longitudinal
studies associating a regular regimen with improved performance in executive
and upper management positions, maybe incorporate Saturation Vipassana™ into an
executive excellence retreat program in the Sonoran Desert, see if you could
get Kamaka Hitomi to attend; it wouldn’t be hard, she’s been pumping
iconoclastic spirituality into the Pangaea® brand for years now.
But I soon tired of the petro-princes, the
carbon-neutral crawlers were much more entertaining. I saw a Chinese family
circling their seats and setting dim sum on a black lacquered table at the
taxi’s center. I saw an ancient Hispanic woman who clearly took Pacem Mortis[xii]
very seriously (my PERD pegged her at 104.16 years of age—zooming on her
face was like flying over a wadi delta) murmuring fervently over a rosary. I
saw a delightful eruption of sibling outrage: a four-year-old in a central
booster seat waited until her brothers, sitting on either side, fell fast
asleep, then executed a spring-loaded super-smack: both brothers caught a sharp
backhand full in the face and one sprang a nosebleed.
Of course scenes like this needed to be actively
sought out. They were the exception, not the rule. Most of my fellow passengers
were glazed in or glazed out, either lost in the wynds and closes of the secret
city that loomed in the mist behind their eyes, or swallowed by the holographic
panorama parading down the boulevard: a garden of earthly delights decades in
the making, specially tailored by the benevolent and omniscient persons that
watch us from our birth, learning our hopes and insecurities with maternal
patience and attention to detail, educating the assembly of algorithms that
descend from their firmament and minister to us. We can trust that the assembly
of gods, Pangaea®, Ganymede®, Loki®, Hathor®, Shangdi®, He Xiangu®, Fu Lu Shou®, Agbala®, Pandora®, will never fail to spread the
dew of desires as yet unknown over the fresh green landscapes of our morning
hearts.
I watched the faces of the dreamers, wondering
what, if anything, my world might share with theirs. My adblockers were still
up, and the holo-pitches looked like gleaming compound eyes: faceted black
grapefruits buzzing along the trolley lines suspended over our heads. For the
dreamers, though, they were the fragments of a pristine realm, untouched by
choice or pain. For the dreamers, those sparkling black jewels were windows
into the Kingdom of Promise, the dominion where a gnawing sense of absence
finds its undreamt referent, unsullied by the crass mud of actual fulfillment,
promising that things will be alright if you will only…
What did they see out there, the dreamers? This
sweaty bald diving bell of a man, alone in the front seat with a Retro-Gulp®
soda in his hand, what was it that drew his head around in rhythmic circles?
Did exotically colored women with long lashes and lurid propositions circle
just beyond the windows of his red hat lady? Probably not. More likely the
pitch had summoned a merry-go-round and placed him in the center. Now the
brass, the round transparent bulbs with their hot white filaments, the eight
silly pastorals painted on the octagonal central column, were spinning round
and round to a cheerful tune, and in the squealing features of the children on
their wild-eyed mounts he could see echoes of the children who were there for
all his firsts. And whatever It was, if he bought It, It would take him back to
that time of firsts, when every moment was fresh from the Creator’s hands,
smelling of cold cool daybreak spattered over wet white flowers.
More and more I see the holo-pitches playing with
nostalgia, bringing us back to a time when Waking Life still kissed our fresh
new skin with inscrutable rosy lips: a time when it still felt right to make a
sound because you liked the way it sounded, to hop up and down because you
wished to hop up and down, to tell a strange man in a supermarket that his
mustache made you feel dizzy. The most spectacular fruits of Progress are now
applied to our secret hopes of Regress, a backwards passage through the snake
of time to the moment when we could still feel the soft cool fingers of the
Present on our hairless cheeks. I used to think it cruelly ironic that these
keen black eyes should convince us we might reclaim the Present by acquiring
something we did not already possess. But, at this point on my own road,
watching youthful hopes receding in the rearview mirror, I can understand the
holo-pitch and what it stands for as something less harmful than the truth. I
woke from my reverie with LAX looming up before me.
I decided to travel by air-sloop, the low-hanging,
slow-moving, paternalistic profiles that have so recently materialized in the
placid horizons beyond our over-crowded and over-caffeinated urban skies. I
could not say why. All my instincts testified against the decision. Our
cereal-bowl flight plan, mapped upon the mysteries of August zephyrs, involved
four weeks’ over the southwestern and southern United States before reaching
Spencer County. The exorbitant price tag and “Don’t You Deserve…?” marketing
guaranteed that my travel companions would be trowelled from an exhausting
corner of the socioeconomic pie.
But none of that had mattered once I caught my
first glimpse of Moby Dick.[xiii]
Craning my head under the creamy panorama of his rippling belly, feeling my
loins throbbing with the benign murmur of his subaltern grumblings, I was suddenly
seized by the vigorous and undifferentiated possibility of travel. I think it
may have excavated my childhood experience of the zeppelin in Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade, and
all that movie stood for at the time: mystery, danger, the disruption of the
known, the territory that escapes cartography. I found a map of the United
States circa 1938 on my PARD[xiv]
and traced the journey in thick lipstick lines, marking every stop with a fat
winterberry[xv].
Then I printed an enormous sepia hardcopy to cover the wall at the foot of my
bed. Dolores and I spent long nude hours gazing happily at that map, hotboxing
the cabin with badly rolled blunts and the enormous Cuban phalli she could produce
from her antique medicine chest in such miraculous quantities. It became a
symbol in common, the peg on which we hung this brief convergence in our
aspirations, as she prepared to start a new life, and I prepared to bring one
to an end.
[i] The reader should note that although I will be
adhering to popular convention by referring to the first and second “Discus
Declarations,” the Demon himself never used the term “Declaration,” he simply
referred to his texts as “Book One” and “Book Two.” Book One was released on
August 15th, the date, in the Eastern Orthodox Liturgical Calender,
of the Feast of the Dormition of the Theotokos. Book Two was, of course,
released simultaneously with the terrorist attack of November 8th of
the same year, on the date of the Holy Synaxis of the Archangel Micheal and the
Other Bodiless Powers. For a detailed discussion of the possible significance
of these dates, see the the article by Herby Hu in my recent anthology of
essays on the Discus Declarations: (“Method in the Madness?: The Liturgical
Calender of the Discus Demon” in Living
Blood from Lifeless Ashes: Essays in Response to Vladimir Wimpleton’s Discus
Demon; POI:5, p. 285-300
[ii] This epigraph, the first of a total of fourteen,
sets the tone in more ways than one. The text is Coptic, saying twenty-nine from the apocryphal Gospel
of Thomas, and reads as follows: Jesus said: “If the flesh came into existence
because of the spirit, it is a marvel. But if the spirit (came into existence)
because of the body, it is a marvel of marvels. But as for me, I wonder at
this, how this great wealth made its home in this poverty” (Blatz, B. in New
Testament Apocrypha; POI:12, vol. 1, 110-33. Since this edition is
intended for the general rather than the academic reader, I will be using the
Pangaea®
citation style.) The Gospel of Thomas is part of a body of so-called “Gnostic” texts,
unearthed at Nag Hammadi in 1945, that grant significant insights into the oral
traditions of early Christianity. Unlike the canonical Gospels, the Gospel of
Thomas is not a linear account of the life of Jesus, but a body of 114 sayings
(or logoi) attributed to him. Two
things should be noted here. The first is the thematic harmony that logos twenty nine sounds upon the rest
of the Demon’s work, especially in light of the “spiritualizing” and “body
denying” impulses widely associated with Gnostic forms of Christianity (it is
worthy of note that the works of Plato were also prominent among the Nag
Hammadi texts.) The second is the introduction of a formal pattern which will
be employed in later epigraphs and in much of the work’s main body that draws
on the Gnostic and monastic traditions of early Christianity, in which logoi (sayings) attributed to Jesus and (later), to saints and monastic fathers,
played a significant role in the pursuit of a purified state of ascetic
“singleness.” The Greek logos can
mean both a single “word” and a narrative or explanatory account, (whence the
English suffix “logy” for an account/body of knowledge, as, in the case of
living things, the discipline of “biology.”) Many of the sayings of the Desert
Fathers and Mothers (the 4th and 5th century originators
of Medieval monasticism) begin with a novice or disciple asking to be given a logos to aid them in their pursuit of
spiritual integration and wholeness.
[iii] Presumably Shirley Gorman of Georgia, who sold the
reproduction rights for her simulacrum to the Oxy-Bond® company after her
January 12th victory in the Miss America Pageant of the same year.
[iv] I will be casting a vote in favor of this
edition’s value to posterity by explaining local and contemporary acronyms:
“Bay Area Rapid Transit”, originally the public transportation network and
subsequently the traffic AI for San Francisco and its greater metropolitan
area.
[v] “Pangaea® Enhanced Reality Display”.
[vi] “Los Angeles International Airport”.
[vii] “International Academy of Artificial Intelligence”.
[viii] “Automation & Ingenuity”, an annual event
sponsored by second generation Singularitarian and industrialist Vladimir
Itskov.
[ix] “City University of New York”.
[x] “Perception Wash”, a common West Coast idiom for
ERD visual filters.
[xi] Kamaka Hitomi Europa, then and now the CEO of
Pangaea®, was a personal acquaintance of the Discus Demon. They worked closely
together when he was hired to integrate the results of the Nous Project into
the Pangaea® prosopon’s Search Engine Optimization department, which she headed
at that time. There has been some speculation that they may have briefly
pursued a non-professional relationship, but there is little to support the
assertion beyond the desire to see a tickling new collision in the firmament of
celebrity.
[xii] The famous encyclical of Pope Pius XIII issuing
strong cautions regarding the use of biminian therapies. Originally trained as
an Assyriologist, Pius had a penchant for classical references and rhetorical
flourishes; one of the document’s key phrases, Non simus simili Gilgamo “let us not be like Gilgamesh”, has become
a staple among both Catholics and non-Catholics in the anti-biminian community.
[xiii]
No air-sloop by that name is currently in
service, making this a private or poetic designation. Ashley Nazharkan
(“Subaltern Nature: Moby Dick as a Mode of Transport in the Discus
Declarations,” in Living Blood from
Lifeless Ashes: Essays in Response to Vladimir Wimpleton’s Discus Demon;
POI:5, p. 302-367) has attempted to situate this curiosity within a hermeneutic
horizon developed by previous interpreters of Herman Melville’s white whale,
which understands Moby Dick as a symbol of the Realist idea of Nature: wild, violent,
irrational, indifferent and unstoppable. Stephen Crane’s “The Open Boat” is the
typical example of this conception. It is worth keeping in mind, of course,
that Moby Dick has also been interpreted as a symbol of God.
[xiv] Pangea® Artificial Reality Display.
[xv] The first instance of Our Hero’s predilection for
dragging in assorted fragments of 20th and 21st century
pop culture ephemera. The Indiana Jones movies are still well known among cellulophiles. A collaboration between
the late 20th century crowd-pleasers Steven Spielberg and George
Lucas (the creator of Star Wars) they
recount the story of a fedora wearing, bullwhip wielding, globe-trotting
archeologist (played by Harrison Ford) racing against the Nazis to recover
biblical artifacts of extraordinary power, notably the Ark of the Covenant and the
Holy Grail. The movies hold up well, it must be said: an intoxicating blend of
ruthless Old Testament mythology and klepto-cosmopolitan swashbucklery, served
with a generous helping of grittily cartoonish violence. Travel in the movies
is consistently represented by blood red lines on a yellowed map, with large
red dots to mark stopovers and arrivals. Raiders
of the Lost Ark is set in 1938. (Lucasfilm Ltd., The Indiana Jones Trilogy; POI:718.)
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